the masquerade of life...

as i was watching a video by one republic corectly titled "all the right moves" i became intsantly inspired to right a blog entry about masquerade's of life and the faces we put on. the way we act around everyone.

not many people are willing to go past a superficial surface, not many are brave enough and secure and sure enough in their lives to discuss deeper issues other than what color they should paint their nails, which outfit to wear when going out that night, ect.

lately people have found me worthy of knowing their personal lives, i hope i have not failed them, i try my hardest not to, so many people are hurting inside, so many have so much going wrong in their lives, so many people are lost and when they tell someone what they do to cope no one seems to care, just tells em not to do it. when really all they need is someone who understands what they are going through, what they are feeling, what they are dealing with.

although i am unable to take the pain away, all i can do is listen and help in the best way i know possible, i cant and still dont know how to deal with half the crap going on in my life, yes people are there for me and yes i have a God who loves me and will take the pain away, however i feel that some of it i have to learn how to deal with it. you can push the thoughts away as much as you like but when it comes down to it, the problems are still there.

so getting to the point of my whole story, we as people and a society put on a masquerade and fake our own happiness, we pretend all if fine and well in our lives when in reality 90 percent of the time our world is just a series of one bad event after another. life is all about attitude and how you handle things, however sometimes its okay to become upset and confused and let your guard down, let people in show them how things really are...its time for us to put our masks down, show the ones you trust the ones you love the inside workings of yourself.

dont let past mistakes, regrets, experiences keep you away from possible amazing friends, relationships, maybe even love, everyone has had people up and walk out of their lives, not speak to them because they got into a fight and called it quits, we have all had tradgedies, but you shouldnt allow that to keep you from opening up. i dont, i wait and when and if the time is right and the person is the kind of person that i can open up to i do, i dont let the pain from past experiences keep me from living my life how i want to.

life is all about attitude and how you handle things and no matter how much people try to convince me that they are okay i can see right through them, they pretend nothing is wrong, they pretend everything is alright when really all they want to do is cry, scream, yell, be angry, anything they just want to feel. so please by all means feel, let people in, even if they walk out or leave your life for whatever reason there is always more people, just see that life is beautiful, as ugly as it can be sometimes there is alot of beauty in there also...just dig through and see...life will not always be this complicated and hurtful, life will get better, so keep your head held high and let life happen like its supposed to

"you say your miserable, however you choose to be, so why not be happy...find the beauty in ugly"